What's Going On!?

A bit about my eye-opening experience.

As many of you may know, when I was 18 years old, I had an experience that shattered not only my worldview but also me as a person.

When living in my hometown, I had an experience with what I can only label a UFO, or as we call them today, UAP.

The term UAP is now the official term. Unlike back then, the subject of UFOs is not only accepted by areas of the American government and public, due to whistleblowers and classified information coming forward, that indeed something other than our terrestrial craft is, and has been, in our skies for a very long time.

This experience not only shattered me but set me off on a mental, intellectual and, unbeknownst to me at the start, a spiritual journey to try and understand what had happened and was happening to me.

My journey of discovery and unfolding led me to many seemingly unrelated subjects.

I started reading what I could on the UFO subject, which led me in a myriad of directions: religions of the world, conspiracy theories, politics and psychology.

And all the while, whilst reading and experiencing maddening mental and emotional experiences, the doctors called it psychosis, which sat with the label attributed to me of paranoid schizophrenia.

It's been a very wild and tormenting journey my whole adult life, both due to what I was uncovering in the world and, more so, because of my personal mental experiences, or what the doctors call psychosis.

Anyway, before this turns into a book, let me move on!

What Do I Perceive Today?

I am now 47, and in recent years have started to manage my mental and emotional experiences that have been tormenting me for all my adult life.

And as my fog, as it were, is starting to clear, I find myself in a world that I perceived in many ways years ago during my journey and studies.

A world gripped by division, hatred of others, labelled groups and spiralling towards seeming chaos...

But the chaos is not the concern for me. It's the fact that it is manufactured chaos in large part, guided chaos, by beings, networks of ultra-wealthy beings/people who are not only trying to usher us towards a great conflict.

And from the ashes of that conflict, bring in a new world order, one where people will have next to no freedom, a technological dictatorship, but one where they want the survivors to be grateful after surviving major global conflict and destruction.

I'm not going into great detail as I don't want this to be too long, too scary and too paranoid (which I'm fully aware it already is).

Nothing Is Set in Stone!

I don't think we are at a crossroads as such, but more of a juncture, much the same way a branch of a tree moves out from the trunk and has smaller branches off the main branch, the branches representing possible directions things can develop.

I don't think or feel anything is set in stone, as I feel we can influence and branch off our reality and timeline in a myriad of directions, both in our collective and personal lives.

I do, however, perceive that collective forces, aligned with a seemingly negative shadow nature or entity, want things a certain way, consisting of greed and control.

Whether this is just a collective shadow or an actual entity matters not really, as its desires are the same and rooted in fear and not surrendering to the force of creation, but wishing to control what of it it perceives it can.

I have no fear towards this perception, as I feel that all we need to do is tune to our hearts and inner standing.

And we will be gently guided to places, people and actions.

Much like Taoist thought, I think we need not get caught up in the world but tend to our life force and navigate our lives.

We can change things by being true to ourselves, our inner knowing and our inner standing.

But that can seem the hardest journey, coming to understand who and what we really are.

There is hope, and nothing is set in stone.

But if we don't have love and compassion in our hearts, and the clarity of thought they can bring, we may find ourselves being used and misled by things we'd rather not.

We need to abandon fear, for fear not only can lead us to hate, but it also shrinks our worldview and perception.

No one has all the answers, but if we don't talk openly and from our hearts, none of us will learn, and we will not make any progress as individuals and a race.

May you know peace.

May you know happiness.

May you know well-being.